"I think that I'm lost here, lost in a place called America"

Do you ever have one of those moments where you just completely freak out?

I've been having one for the last couple of months. It's extended.

I got another jolt today as I went to file my continued claim and was told to contact the Reemployment Call Center. Of course, it's all based on the last # of your SS#, so I have to call back tomorrow. Thank you, State of New Jersey, for reminding me it's been a year since I was last working. It makes me feel SO MUCH better.

I'm kind of freaking out about it. I know have I money left but what if I'm rejected. It's so sudden. I thought I had until December. I'm moving to JC in hopes of getting some kind of state job.

Speaking of jobs. My degree is utterly useless outside of architecture. Other than French and core requirements, I have nothing but crap ass architecture classes under my proverbial belt. How on earth does this help me in the real world? It doesn't. Hey architecture students, take some marketing or accounting classes!!

So here's what's going on these days:

Last week, I went to visit Farrah for a few days and we looked at places for me to live. We found a nice little two bedroom duplex with a full basement and a garage!! Very inexpensive! Then I came home and continued with my packing. I'm nearly done. I have some kitchen stuff to pack today and lots of cleaning up.

Mom is arriving Thursday and it looks like Friday will be crazy moving day! And probably Saturday too since I have a ton of crap.

I have been periodically working on my costume but it's been put on hold until all packing is complete. Hopefully, I'll get back to work on it today.

I have been a busy bee cleaning up the house and doing a number of projects such as painting the hall bathroom, scrubbing the back porch and touching up holes in the wall (mostly from the previous tenant).

Did I add that I'm kind of freaking out today about pretty much everything? Yeah. Freaked out.

I need to remember to get catfood today. Random, I know.

The good news is that fluffy butt, Gabby, is going to get spayed at the end of this month. Right before Halloween! Which I will be living in Jefferson City for so no crazy driving that weekend for the party!!

Now, a job and a boyfriend. I need to get on those two things. Although the job thing is a continual process - I've been online for nearly 2 hours looking at state jobs in JC.

Okay. Since I need to come back tomorrow and get on the internet, I guess I'll go home and pack and clean. And eventually mow.

I'm still completely stressed out. At least season 1 & 2 of Big Love have been making my life comparatively easier to handle.

 

Comments

[Matthew]

I was once told that a peson employed is much more attractive to prospective employers. I suppose it goes along with people who are taken tend to be more attractive to a potential suitor. Idk.

I digress. I have no idea what kind of jobs you have been looking for, but maybe just about any job would do (except McDonalds :P) to get your foot in the door of a better job.

Of course the other fun part about being unemployed and having a college degree... over qualified for every place that is hiring. :P

Hopefully something will land in your lap soon.

[Ingrid]

I just finished an architecture degree and am looking for a job, ANY job, and I relate to feeling totally useless in anything but architecture related fields! And even in the field, I still feel as though I'm going to be a bit useless! I actually googled "architecture student freaking out about finding a job" (pretty lame, but searching for empathy) and this part of your blog came up. hope you have a job now!